Almost all the projects are done, left with mobcomp, due on friday. Haha.


Hmmm, i dun noe why but some past memories kept flowing in my mind the last two days. I would say these are the memories i wont forget in my whole life. NEVER.. although i tried telling myself not to think abt it so much, but still will look back.


But, i wanna thank my lord for his strength once again. I pray to him last night, felt that he is by my side. After praying, i felt so much better, and there is a goal in my life. I know what i sld do now. I wont think so much of the past, but it will always be a memories that will never be erase.


Thinking back, felt that i was being silly. Hmmm, used to look down on myself, felt that i'm nth but a useless person. Tried changing myself, hoping to be a perfect person in everyone's eyes. But, it was now that i really felt tired, it make me feel worse, uneasy. It not the me that i want to see. So, i have decided, i want to just be myself, a happy self. No one is perfect, i will change for the better. But, not turning myself to another person. In the past, i like to compare myself to other people. But i really come to think that, if i keep on comparing, that is no end to it. The world is so BIG, how am i going to compare?


Yeah! I just wanna be myself, no more comparison. NO MORE! Dun care abt wat others think of me or i should say i dun allow myself to think of what others thinks about me. LOL. I just want a simple life. Can i? All the past thinking that i had, "why am i so ugly, so stupid, so useless..? I will never do great things. Yup, i always look down on myself.


But not now, maybe at times, i will still think of it. But i know i am not alone. Lol. I wanna share all these with someone, but dunno who to share with, so decided to write here. Just need to say out, then i will feel better. Sry all, and thanks all for listening. Lol.




I will always be thankful that once along my life's journey, i have someone like you. Thanks all for being such a wonderful friends to me. :)