Thursday (24/07/08)

Met up with one of my sec sch friend, vanessa.c at tampines. Wow! It had been so so so long that i last see her. Hmmm, last saw her was like last sems? Haha. Wow, she have also grown so pretty man! (:

Yup, it had been nice talking with her. Will go kbox one day yup? Haha. Went watched "The Dark Knight", is a 2 hour plus movie. The movie not bad ar, the JOKER is really a joker man! "Why so serious?" Lol.

After that, we went home together. Both of us stayed at bedok. Cool, haha. On the way home, we talked alot! Shall meet up with her again soon! Yup.

Friday (25/07/08)

Yay! Always looking forward to this day. Haha. Cg was great! 10 ppl came, it was a breakthrough! Praise the Lord! Indeed, God is a good God. Whatever we ask for, He will give it to us! Just gotta continue to pray. Prayers works! Amen! Had fun playing the game, the word was good and had a great fellowship! Wow!

Actually before cg starts, mar ask me to prepare a word to give during cg. Inside my heart, i was like "oh no, what if i give wrongly and so on." But then, i begin to tell myself not to be afraid. Just be led by the Holy Spirit. Yup. This is my first time giving a word. Hmmm, when i was giving the word, i can feel the nervous in me. Tend to say and stop, say and stop. Sorry people if it was not good. But i thank God that at least i give it a try, stepping out of my comfort zone. I thank mar for encourageing me. If not, i will never know when or how to give a word. Yup. After sharing the word, i really felt good in me. Will continue to pray and ask God to teach and guide me. Wanna share more in the cg next time. Yeah! No fear in me! LEARN! (:

Saturday (26/07/08)

Woke up around 8 plus and helped my mum to do housework. Need to prepare to go give tuition now! Pray that it will be a good one! Then, after that, go for svc. Yay! Serving today, get to see the kids. Haha. Im sure the kids will brighten up my day! Haha! Yeah! (:

i wanna stay faithful in YOU!

Was feeling SUPER TIRED today and was having stomach cramp! Arggg! Pain pain pain!

Once i reached home, had my dinner and went to sleep. Slept for 2 hours, feeling much better. Then, went to bathe and feel much energetic. Haha. Praise God! Can start to do my stuff. Cos didnt really do much for my project in school today.

Had prayer conference with andy and yeeleng, feel so much better after praying! Actually, was feeling quite burden for my family and connect group. But yup, God begin to remind me of this verse: "Dun be tired of doing things that are good for in due season you shall reap." Amen! I remembered jess once shared this verse with me too! Yar! Will continue to pray and fast for them! God is doing something good in my life. When you see it, you shall have it! Yes!

For the past few days, had been quite addicted to eating chocolates. Haha. Do not know why but after eating it, it does refresh me. Make me more happy too! But cant eat much, cos having pimples now. :(

Actually, had replaced chocolates with "Uncle Tobys" museli bar with yoghurt topps strawberry flavour. Haha. Tried once and it taste good. Yummy! Oh dear, had been eating quite alot lately. Never mind, "chi le zai shuo". Lol.





Hmmm, oh ya, wanna pray for my mum and sister too. Both of them are sick. My mum is having sore throat. As for my sis, she having flu. Lord, take away every illness in them. Be well soon! Will continue to pray for my family! (:


Lord, i need your strength!

Yipee! Hooray! Muahahaha! Yeah! Woo hoo~ LOL!

Im feeling so happy yoh! Haha!

Have gotten my pay ytd. It came just on time. Praise God! Gave part of it to my mum and she was happy. Heh! (:

Went bugis today. Bought my stuff, not all, but at least bought my shirts and jeans. Is like finally! Ahahas! My bro is so so so nice and sweet lo, accompany me to go. Lol. Actually, is my mum ask him to go with me de, cos she say i alone. Haha. My mum did not want to go cos she was tired. Then my sis went for work today. Thanks bro, i know you are tired walking around with me. In appreciation, have blessed him with a ice-cream cone and bubble tea. Haha. You had made my day. Thanks and love much! (:

Anyway, thank God for my mum, cos she had really been nice to me for the past few days. I mean at times she still nag at me, but i know that deep in her, she cares for me! I feel her love. Awww! Haha! Had been fellowshipping with her and i feel it was great! Will continue to pray for peace and love in my family! Yup! (:

Hmmm, still left with shoes and bag to buy. Wanna get a sling bag soon, cos the bag that im using, the side is like goona tear soon. Sob! Anyway, gotta start saving first, cos i have used up the pay that ive gotten. Opps. Haha! Spend abit too fast le bah! Lols. ST, gotta start saving! Heh!

Okay, shall stop here. Gotta go rest now! Having early school tml and it will be a long day for me. Yup! Hmmm, seriously, i need to pray for strength and wisdom for my project work. The task that cher gave is abit hard ya, with more animation. Haha. But, no fear, no worries, no stress! Im gonna overcome it! Lol. Cos My God is with me! (:

No longer i but Christ living in me! (:

Hey yoh! (:

Its time for some update! Haha!

Anyway, cell group was GREAT on friday! Yes! with more people joining us. Praise the Lord! Haha! Yes, shall continue to pray till we see w312 breakingforth! With more members rising up! With more new friends joing us! Yes, we shall see it and will have it! Yeah! (:

The word was great too and felt that it was really for me. The title of the message is "Victory Over Shame". Double WOW! Its really important to have a positive self-image. Four points: "Self-image", "self-worth", self-esteem", "self-respect".

Thinking back:

Before Christ - I used to think that im not good enough. Many times, will think of how others thinks/looks at me. I always feel that im short, ugly, stupid. People like me cant do greater things. In my mind, im just "lousy". Friends will also say i "emo", dun really dare to talk to me. Seriously, i dun like this kind of feeling. I mean, who enjoys life being like this. No one.

After Christ - Wow! Honestly speaking, im feeling much happier now! Haha. Thank God for all the blessing He had given me! Lovely family members that always being there for me, wonderful cell group members that teaches and encourages me, friends that did not give up on me! Most of all, i experience God's love. My abba father, who love me for who i am. Say "goodbye" to "emo". LOL.

But, one thing i feel i have to really "fight" it through is my self-confidence. Seriously, i am not confident enough. Hmmm, at times, tend to compare with others, then start to think that im not good. Then, all the i am "short", "ugly" and "stupid" appear in my mind again. What really hurts me is people around me say those things to me. Is like double confirming it.

But not anymore! Yeah! After being manifested and also of the word, i've make a decision! That is to be myself, love myself for who i am. Im not gonna see how people look at me. As long as i look good in God's eyes. Yay! I mean yes, look good outwardly, but is still the inwardly that really matters. Just gotta have a good heart.

Im not perfect, nobody is perfect. All the shame that i had, i've given to the Lord. No longer i but Christ living in me! (:

Will remembered the word:

We are created in the image of God.

We need to be secure of who we are.

Your identity is not determine by others. (resist the devil, flee from it!)

God is the one that HOLDS my DESTINY!!! Amen!

I gotta be strong and not let the devil come and shame me!

Words I confess daily!

I am a child of God

God is my "Abba Father" - my Daddy God!

God loves me just the way i am.

God lives in me and i live in Him

I am a person of infinite worth.

I have been created unique in every way.

It is OK to love myself and take care of myself.

I am created by God for every good work.

God has called me and chosen me as His own.

God is changing me every day to be more like Him.

I am a person of great purpose and destiny.

I am given talents, gifts, and abilities by God.

I am able to achieve great things in God.

I am abounding in grace and hope.

I am "blessed" - empowered to succeed in life.

Greater is God in me than the devil in the world.

I don't have to be afraid of anything for God is with me.

Every bad habit i have is losing control over me.

Even my enemies are at peace with me now.

God is thinking good thoughts about me right now.

God is planning the paths that will lead me to my purpose.

I have visions and dreams from the Holy Spirit regularly.

I am led daily by the Holy Spirit.

I will walk in good health and live a long life.

I will prosper financially in life.

I love Jesus wholeheartedly.

I love people fervently.

Jesus loves me forever.

Have Faith and stay Strong! (:

Yay! Went for service on sat and it was great! Pastor Mike came to preach and i am really blessed by it. He talked about disappointment and yes, i've manifested. I've gave all my disappointment to the Lord and will start with all things new. Yup. I felt good after that. I believe the Lord have a great plan for me. Thank You Jesus for loving me for who i am. Will not try to be somebody else. I know God created me this way and have a purpose for me. From now onwards, will start with all things new and yes, I love you Jesus with all my life! (:

Yup, as for today, had been a good girl, stayed at home and fellowship with my mum. I've suggested to go bugis to walk, my mum was surprised. Hahas. She smiled and say okay. But then we end up did not go, cos my brother having tuition. Yup. But is okay, though we did not go out, we stayed at home to watch vcd. Its a hong kong detective show. Seriously, is a super nice show and cannot stopped us from watching. Is like we watched non-stop from morning to night. Lol. But i feel i had a good time with my mum and think she sees the effort that i made. Hahas. She is so nice to me today! I feel great! Will continue to pray and ask the Lord for better relationship with her. Yeah! (:

Okay, shall have a good night rest today. Have to wake up early tml. Yup, 8 more weeks to go to finish my FYP. Must hang on there. I pray that i will not give up, is the last lap and will finish running the race. I know i cannot do it with my own strength but I can do it with God's strength. With God, all things are possible! Yeah! (:

Thank you Jesus! I Love You! (:

Cell Group today was great! Im really blessed by the word! Some points that i wanna share which i feel is good:

Real Relationship is not accidental. It is made, develop and cultivate. It need time.

Two groups of friends:

1. Close Friend
- result of choice
- have to be selective

2. Casual Friend
- result of circumstances (eg. same class)

Qualities of a True Friend:

- serve one another
- be generous and giving
- esteem others better than yourself
- be interested in other's people's life
- encourage others
- appreciate and be thankful at all times
- love your neighbour as yourself

Wow! It really touches me after hearing the word. Thinking about it, yes, we can have many friends, but i feel it is important to have True Friend. A friend that you can really trust, share your joys and sorrows with and will always be there for you no matter happy or bad times. More than that, a friend that will help you to be wise, share your burden and grow spiritually. Yup, think this is then called True Friend! (:

I really thank God for placing friends in my life. Thank the Lord that i have also found True Friend, one that i can really share my burdens with. After hearing the word, i immediately think of mar, yee leng and jess. Yup. They have been a true friend to me, making a great impact in my life. Had been great knowing them. Thanks so much! (:

Looking through the Qualities of being a True Friend, I feel i need to really improve on the area of 'being generous and giving'. Yup. Many a times, i wanna be more generous and giving, but will tend to think alot. Hmmm, will ask myself, "what if i give then i not enough?", which i think is really being passive and selfish. I gotta really work on this area, learn to be more generous and giving. I cannot think so much about myself but to put others first. I want to be more like Jesus.

Yeah! Learned something new today. If you want to have a true friend, you must first be a true friend to others! (:

Friend like you are heaven sent.
Thank God for you! (:

Okay, met up with my sec sch friends last last week. Hahas. Yup, had a great time with them. Sorry gals, took so long to meet up with u all. Haha. Anyway, i really enjoyed the time spent with u gals. Thanks so much! (:

Vanessa - Hey gal, a really good friend of mine. Hahas. It had been great knowing you. I still remembered the times that we were in SAC, haha. You had always been a good friend to me. Even now, though we were in different poly, u are always there trying your best to help me in my work. Hahas, will never forget that i have such a wonderful friend like you! (:

Janet - Janet! I really miss you yoh! Hahas. It had been so long that we last met. Must meet up again soon yup. Another good friend of mine, hahas. She is always so kind and helpful. Thanks for always being there for me. All the best in your studies! (:

Benedine - Hahas, took alot of photos with you that day. We were like so crazy lo, haha. Yup, it had been nice knowing you too! Thanks. Lets meet up soon okay? Then, we shall use vanessa's camera and take lots of photos again! Lol! (:

Okay, shall upload some photos here. Took alot of photos that day. Haha. Oh ya, thanks vanessa for the photos! heh! (:















































Love you gals lots! (: