I MISS SCHOOL! :(

If i'm not wrong, today is the brand new year of a new sems for the poly students. Thinking back, when i'm still in my poly sch days life, i always hope for a long holidays. I even hope that i can quickly graduate and step into working life, earn lots and lots of money, buying new things that i want. But this is not what i want now.

Working life is not as easy as i think. It is so much tiring than school life! Yes, it is! It is always the same routine, doing the same old thing. Wake up at 6.45am, prepare to go work at 8am, reach office at 9am, lunch break at 1pm, end work at 6pm, reach home at 7pm, sleep at 11pm or maybe later. I think it really take times for me to get use to the working environment. Not only the working environment but also the people in the work place.

I still remembered that on my first day of work, i nearly cried. It is not so much of working up early, but is the journey to the work place. Omgz! You really got to "SQUEEZE" with the crowd of people. Suddenly, i just miss taking bus to school. My bus 69!!! Haha. Okay, let's continue with my story. Then, when i'm in my work place, i don't even know any people. I was asked to sit down and wait for my manager to come.

While waiting, i scan through the whole office and realised that all the people in the office are really busy doing their things. I stared at the table infront of me, not knowing what to do but to just wait. 5 mins past, 10 mins past, 30 mins past, 1 hour had past and i still did not see my manager. I waited for another half an hour before i saw the manager coming to office. She then briefed me on my work, giving me work to do. At last, i'm given something to do than staring at the table. If people don't know, they thought i'm not doing any thing lo.

So i was left to do the work that i was told to do. I get to know this PA sitting behind me. She introduce herself to me and i think she is a very nice person. Haha. So if i don't know anything, i will ask her. Hmmm, just hope that she won't get irritated by me cos i really asked alot. Oh man! Haha.

So yup. This is how i went through my first day of work. What really touches me is bf waited for me to have lunch with me and the msg that my dad sent. He wrote: "xue ting, i'm going back to china to work. You must take care of yourself okay? I will come back on May again, all the best for your work today." After reading, tears just rolled down from my eyes.

Today is my eighth day at work. Get abit use to working life now. At least, get to know more things and know what to do as compared to the first day of work. But, i still misses school. Thought of the first day when i step into tp, meet new classmates and lecturers. Thought of the time when my friends and i will go for lunch after our lectures/tutorials. Thought of the time when my group stayed back late in school to do our project work. Seriously, i miss TP! I miss my friends and lecturers!

Just wanna say all the best to all the poly students in the start of their new sems. Hope that you all will do well in your studies! Remember, enjoy your ploy lifes. Play hard and study hard! (:

As for me, i thank God that my manager have confirm me for the work. I just hope that everything that i do, i will be able to do well. Hope that i will make less mistakes. Even if i have, i hope i can remember and not make the same mistakes again. I also hope that i have make the right decision in staying put in this job and can learn new things from it! May the Lord be with me and guide me through in everything that i do! Hope i can glorify God through my work! Thank God in advance! (:

I know that this post is kinda long. Sorry and thanks all for being so patient to hear me rant. Haha.

I miss school! :(

My back is so painful! *sobs*

Supposed to go for training today but last min decided not to go. Partly cos due to my back pain. Then cos i also wanna fellowship with my mum. Haven been fellowshiping with my mum cos have been working for the past one week. By the time i reach home, its like 7pm plus. Then after doing all the folding of clothes and ironing of my bro's uniform, already feel quite tired. So did not get to talk much to her. So yup.

The fellowhip with my mum today was quite good. Meet her for lunch and watch vcds with her. I think is a taiwan show. Lol. So basically, have a great time at home today. Omgz! I feel so good to be at home! Haha.

I recieved my graduation package a few days back. For my course, our graduation ceremony will be on the 20 May 2009. (*must remember) Haha. Some important dates to take note too. RSVP period: 20 April - 02 May 2009. Graduation attire rental/purchase periods: 23 April - 02 May 2009.

Yipee! After three years of hard work, i'm going to graduate! Praise the Lord! I'm so gonna miss Temasek Polytechnic, the lecturers and of course, my dearest classmates! (:

Okay, think it's time for me to take a rest. Gotta work tmr. Will update again yar! (:

All glory unto the Lord! (:

Yo! Yo! Yo!

It had been such a long time that i last update my blog! Hahas!

Went for cg today! I rush down after my work so feel kinda tired. But, i'm looking forward to cg!

Wow! Cg was great and i feel so blessed! I'm touched by the presence of holy spirit.
I love being in your presence again! For the past few days, i feel that i am spiritually dried up and i'm so far apart from God. I may be serving Him, be it in ministry or in cg, but i do not have a connection with Him. What i did was to serve and serve and come to a point that i'm tired. I enjoy serving Him but i have neglected one thing and that is to praise and worship Him.

At times, i really feel like giving up. Church. Ministry. Family. Relationship. Friends. Work. I don't know how to manage or handle. I want to do it equally well in these six areas. But some how or rather, when i begin to focus on one, i will fall on the other. Take for example, i'm feeling very burden. For the past one week that i'm working, i feel that i've lost in touch with my family and cg members. My working time is from 9am to 6pm. After work, i will be so tired and when i go home, still gotta help out abit of housework which i'm supposed to do. I really don't know what should i do. I feel burden for my connect group. I can't really go do visitation which i hope i can. The least i can do is only write a card for them, call them and msg them. But i don't know if by doing this, will it help?

More than that, my parents don't understand me. They only see the negative side of me, things that i did wrong. Sometimes, i do hope for abit of understanding and freedom.

I don't know. Besides saying this three words, i don't know what should i do. Deep in me, i'm afraid and really discourage. Seeing how much others grow, the more i feel i'm lack behind. I really cried out to God today. Let it be His will and not my will. I want more of Him and less of me!

Please be with me, Lord! Teach me and guide me! I don't want to give up that easily. I don't want to rely on my strength but by your strength!

Just wanna thank the Lord for today's cg meeting. I felt strengthen and i really do hope to build up my spiritual life once again. Next, i also want to build stronger relationship with each and every members and also run the same vision as a united cg! (:

I want to be strong, stable and spiritual!