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It had been such a long time that i last update my blog! Hahas!

Went for cg today! I rush down after my work so feel kinda tired. But, i'm looking forward to cg!

Wow! Cg was great and i feel so blessed! I'm touched by the presence of holy spirit.
I love being in your presence again! For the past few days, i feel that i am spiritually dried up and i'm so far apart from God. I may be serving Him, be it in ministry or in cg, but i do not have a connection with Him. What i did was to serve and serve and come to a point that i'm tired. I enjoy serving Him but i have neglected one thing and that is to praise and worship Him.

At times, i really feel like giving up. Church. Ministry. Family. Relationship. Friends. Work. I don't know how to manage or handle. I want to do it equally well in these six areas. But some how or rather, when i begin to focus on one, i will fall on the other. Take for example, i'm feeling very burden. For the past one week that i'm working, i feel that i've lost in touch with my family and cg members. My working time is from 9am to 6pm. After work, i will be so tired and when i go home, still gotta help out abit of housework which i'm supposed to do. I really don't know what should i do. I feel burden for my connect group. I can't really go do visitation which i hope i can. The least i can do is only write a card for them, call them and msg them. But i don't know if by doing this, will it help?

More than that, my parents don't understand me. They only see the negative side of me, things that i did wrong. Sometimes, i do hope for abit of understanding and freedom.

I don't know. Besides saying this three words, i don't know what should i do. Deep in me, i'm afraid and really discourage. Seeing how much others grow, the more i feel i'm lack behind. I really cried out to God today. Let it be His will and not my will. I want more of Him and less of me!

Please be with me, Lord! Teach me and guide me! I don't want to give up that easily. I don't want to rely on my strength but by your strength!

Just wanna thank the Lord for today's cg meeting. I felt strengthen and i really do hope to build up my spiritual life once again. Next, i also want to build stronger relationship with each and every members and also run the same vision as a united cg! (:

I want to be strong, stable and spiritual!